ABOUT LORENZO
I have been a born again Christian since 1995.
The story of my life and how I came to know God is as different, but as common as so many others who finally came to the knowledge of truth. And i am so thankful for HIS love, HIS mercy and HIS desire to know and save me.
I will see if I can tell you the story of my home coming to the Lord in as a brief a tale as possible.
I was going through it during that time in my life……
I can never forget, earlier that day I was speaking to my mother on the phone, and as always, she was telling me to turn to Jesus, that He loves me and has a plan for my life and could help me through all I was going through. She kept telling me to turn around, “cant you see Him?”. I have to admit I was a sarcastic something back then, so my comments were never pleasant. ESPECIALLY about a God I only half believed exsisited, and completely believed He didnt know or care about me if He did. Well, more or less to shut the moms up about this God stuff, I promised her I would read the Bible that night…..
well later that night I am ALONE reading a novel (not the bible) and all that kept going through my mind was “didn’t you make a promise?” Well those words in my head wouldn’t stop, so I figured a SINGLE chapter, a COUPLE VERSES would fulfill that promise and I could get on with my life (whatever that was at the time). Well 7 CHAPTERS later (in the book of Matthew) I was crying beyond anything I have ever did before…..
Well I jumped off the bed, threw that little brown new testament against that wall, spread out my arms (so my body was shaped like a cross, i realized that fact much later) and YELLED “FINE, if you’re real, and you love and want me so bad, then finish what you started!!” and let me tell you.. DON’T EVER challenge God like that, because HE DID…
Something physically hit me so hard on the top of my head, i was dazed. imagine a high pressured shower and the water running down your body. Got that imagined? now imagine that feeling on the INSIDE, but 100 times more powerful. The second hit knocked me to the floor. I could feel so much draining and filling me both at the same time. bitterness, hatred, anger, fear, violent tendencies, ALL draining from my body and life, while at the same time, love, joy, peace, gentleness, control, a desire for God were all filling me….
When I finally got up off that floor, God had me, I was a changed person. I could’nt get enough of God. my life and days were filled with prayer and reading of His word. I wanted to KNOW HIM every and anyway possible. I wanted to share of HIS LOVE and desire for us to be part of His family.
I served Him for years, then fell away. But I am back now and my life is His and I will continue to grow in Him and allow Him to lead my life. He has a plan for me…
He has a plan for ALL of us..find it, live it, share it
August 29, 2008 at 9:57 pm
Wow. Sounds like an awesome anointing. Mine wasn’t so glamorous as that. Was Jan 19, 1986. And I didn’t get that all-consuming wanted to know more. But, I did for a few years and then fell away. Have been slowly learning over the past few years. God is good! Take care!
Char
August 31, 2008 at 4:37 pm
hello remember me? ^_^ hey thanks for droppin by and takin time to read my intimate portrait. yours is ubber long and i really wanna read everything on it but its too time consuming and my boss will kill me if i get caught sufin the net during working hours. but ill read it sometime for sure. anyway, nice meeting you too. and you werent being a jerk lol. its nice to meet people with the same interests as mine so hello new friend!hehe
September 1, 2008 at 6:02 pm
The “Moms” knew that Jesus was standing behind you, just waiting for you to ask him in. Life is full of ups, downs, and in-betweens; but never forget that Jesus is “The Word” Keep walking with The Lord and let him carry you when you can’t walk on your own. Remember way back when – you were a young boy and you lost something on the way home from school… and you prayed to God to help you find it…..????? Did he help you?? Yes he did; he has been there all along….even when you would not acknowledge him.
The MOMS
September 3, 2008 at 1:55 am
Bravo Sir Lawrence…I am indeed impressed and proud of you. I somehow always knew that your calling has been with God all along. You may have gone through so many weathers…but God has brought you forth, and here you are. Remember the story I read you about “THE FOUR AGREEMENTS”, the poetry that was in it, about recognizing and loving everything in God’s creation???? Just reading what you have written tells me that you recognized exactly what HE has asked from you…and of what plans HE has for you…and for this…here you are. Rejoice and be glad. God Bless You Lawrence, I am so proud of you. Reading you, has given me great joy of knowing you and hope for better days….God led me to you one day, and as I see it…you are born again. With Love, Nikiya
September 14, 2008 at 9:52 pm
what made you come back after you fell away?
September 15, 2008 at 2:32 pm
What made me come back?? God. His calling on my life. It seemed undeniable. Everywhere I looked He seemed to be there, reminding me Of His promises and love for me. If you are asking me if there was anything specific that had happened? I cant say if there was. My life was just in chaos. Seemingly going nowhere. As If I was against the wall. I could look at a bus and smell the fumes and “felt this strong urge” that I was supposed to be on it, going somewhere. Doing something for God. The same feeling came when I seen a plane or walked near train tracks. Simply put, I felt there was a mission in my life that I was denying. That I was living another mans life and living in failure. no matter what I did, accomplished, thought or dreamed NEVER felt right. If God wasn’t in it or leading it, it was wrong. I wanted what he had planned for me. so I came home.